Me and him..(Aku dan Dia)

I love him still but I despise him.
I care still for him but
sometimes I wish he never comes home

I worry if he is not well but at times,                                                                
I do not wish to see him ever again.
I will never forget him but I do not want to be with him anymore.

.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLQl3WQQoQ0&ob=av2e

Awak,

Saya sayang awak tapi saya dah tak boleh terima awak lagi...

I am the class clown (Saya seorang badut dalam kelas)

 I have thought about this matter for about a week now. I really want to write about this experience cos its a pretty interesting self revelation. Well I have lived almost 40 years (kertu) , I have only realized that others like to make fun of me and naturally laughing at my "antics" and clown-like behavior . Well.. I like to make gestures and talk funny. But sometimes I was not intentionally being funny like at that time I was doing a presentation and was struggling with the my lap top and the projector and the others did not help but were busy making fun of me. But I kept my cool and went on ..At 1st I was a little bit bothered but when I thought  and thought some more I decided that me being an object of fun and laughter for others is not bad at all but great actually. For me I believe two ways to look at this. One, people have low self esteem and to feel good about themselves , they need to  put others down or,  two, I was really so  funny that people can't help but laugh. Either way, I was helping people by making them laugh and feel happy. So I am happy too. People can't say that I am a boring personlah  hahahah .


Saya seorang badut menjadi bahan gelak ketawa orang lain. Tapi biarlah kita buat orang gelak dari buat orang sedih, sakit hati dan sakit jiwa. Biar kita membawa kegembiraan pada orang dari membawa duka nestapa. Biar kita jadi lilin yang membakar diri untuk kebaikkan orang lain...wahhhhhhhh cek nam sangat mulia sekali..tapi fikirkan kebenarannya..


Live to inspire, live to love life, live with passion, live happily!!!

Cik Nam Sangat

Ada seorang Cik Nam. Dia ni memang suka tanya tu ni. Tanya tu ok tak de helllll malu bertanya lost the road. Tapi yang cik naaaaaaaaammmmmmmm sangat setiap kali dia tanya aku dan aku jawab, sibuk nak mengkritik jawapan aku, konon aku ni yang bongok tak reti nak explain. Heeeeeee kalau kau pandai tak payah tanya kat aku, watlah sendiri..kan..heheh apa lagi Cek Pah  SB (Singa Betina)  gorges pun haaaaa hempik light-light kat dia..padan muka kan...carik pasal lagi ...hahah saya pun Cek Nam gak...sebab pe tau...dalam 2 jam lepas tu..sesudah makan tengah hari..dengan senyuman yang menawan Cik Pah pun tegur " Hei Cik Nam...dah makan ke, cepatnya makan (dalam hati kata makan laju-laju tercekik baru tahu, hilang sopan-santun kau....)...Begitulah kesah dua orang Cek Nam. Moral of the story siapakah yang lebih Cik Nam dia atau aku...akulah kannnnnn. Tau dah.

Yang Benar,
Cek Pah SB

New Dawn New Beginnings.

Mula-mula layan lagu best http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCB01p0pBs0 Holliwood Hills Forever cam sesuai. Lirik pun cam kena. 

Now this is not the time or the place
for a broken-hearted,
'cause this is the end of the rainbow
where no one can be too sad

No I don't wanna leave
but I must keep moving ahead
'cause my life belongs to the other side
behind the great ocean's waves

This song is about leaving some place to move on. And I will be moving on starting 1st November 2011. Somehow I just want to take a minute or two  to relive the journey that has brought me here . Wowww the drama, the heart ache, the joys, the upsets but most memorably the sweet victory over obstacles, resistance, hatred, mutiny and  betrayal..I guess its true what they say what can't break you will only make you stronger. I came back from defeat and though the future is unknown if I will succeed again, I am happy enough with what I have got now bad or good. I would not have wanted it any other way.

To those who love and support me all the way, my heartfelt thanks to all of you. I cherish the prayers, faith and kindness.

And even for those who just "left" and people who judged me badly,  I still say thanks guys. Because of you allsssss this success is even more sweeter, When push comes to shove, I have proven my worth.

New Dawn New Beginnings.