Jumaat, 2 Disember 2011

Me, My kind of crappy life, My crappy marriage, Guess What ..I actually am quite happy

Well as some of you would know I have a weird marriage almost non-existent actually. My life is actually quite messy lah like my house. Some people like me some hate me. I don't have any creative bone so much so I don't know how to clean, sew, knit, sweep, cook and so and so. So I make a very lousy wife, sister in law and of coz daughter in law. My husband says I am spoiled and selfish. No wonder he hates me. Sometimes I hate him also. But we are still together how weird is that? We are not actually together just not separate. Some times I think I still love him and I wonder if he is keeping me as his wife to punish me. Well maybe someday I will make that trip to the Pejabat Agama. So busylah now. No time at all.
Having said all this any one would think I would cry and cry like a typical malay wife in the cerekarama or malay movie but nope not for me. I am quite happy actually. Oh dear  he just sent me sms asking if I would be coming home. So weird...

AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RENSEQ (tension+angry+fell like kicking something or somebody)

I just notice, if in good mood, I will blog in English but if my mood is F**CK** UP, I will revert to Malay. So since I am feeling pretty lousy...please allow me to express myself in my mother tongue. I will do my best to translate to English ok.

Aku baru sekolahkan sorang budak jans ni. Aku rasa dia ni agak kurang ajaqqqq. Aku dok buat kerja aku sibuk nak tanya aku napa tak nak pakai wireless company, napa aku pakai modem sendiri. Aku bagi tahulah aku nak tengok youtube (sekala-sekala rehatkan otak. Aku bukan budak sekolah nak concentrate study jer. Umur kat 40 tahun dah), wireless company tak leh bukak youtube. Dia kondem aku konon partner aku sorang tu sebok kerja kat floor aku dok meng You tube...  Baby betul (sebenarnya nak kata Bab*!) . Eh aku cakap aku buat kerja masa aku nak rehatkan otak aku kena degar lagu atau tengok youtube. Tu memang style aku. Aleh si jantan bongok tu kata "alah I joking jer. " Apa lagi kau carik pasal ngan Cek Pah SB kan. Aku bagi pun bagi ceramah ala kuliah Jumaat yang terover : AKU TAK SUKA ORANG SUKA KONDEM ORANG LAIN PAS TU KATA ALAH LAWAK JER SAMBUNG LAGI AKU SUKA PAKAI BENDA HAK AKU SENDIRI BUKAN CAM ORANG LAIN SUKA GUNA MENDA FREE UNTUK KEPENTINGAN SENDIRI..AKU NAK PAKAI MODEM AKU SENDIRI PATUTNYA TAK ADA MASALAH UNTUK ORANG LAIN KAN. AKU YANG BAYAR BIL  BUKAN AKU MINTA DUIT KAT MAK BAPAK KAU (Ayat yang last ni nasik tambah jer kekekeke).

 Tapi aku tabik jans sorang ni sebab dia faham aku marah dan dia lepas tu mengendeng-nemdeng nak ambik hati aku balik. Dan kalau kalau korang tak kenal aku lagi. Aku ni jenis cepat marah cepat cool dan aku tak de nak simpan-simpan dalam hati. Pas tu kita orang borak balik cam biasa AHAHAHAHHAHAKKKKSSS.. Dengan Cek Pah SB (Akulah) tak payah lah nak cakap sori naik lori ke apa. Aku tak kesah pown asal jangan tarik muka ketat tergeliat bi*ik ngan aku dah.

Translation:

This guy pissed me off by saying that while my partner is doing work I was busy watching you-tube. So I told him to FU** OFF !!!!! hhaha  no lah I explained to him I am (was)  working and watching YT only when I take a break. And then he said alah I joking only. So I said to him I don't like people putting down other people and disguising it as jokes. But I respect this fellow coz he still came and talk to me and later we we joking and talking as usual. Guess I am just the type of person that gets angry real fast but easy to cool down . For this kind of arguing, I do not require any apologies just don't make disgusting faces at me is all.